yep yep my 3rd xanga entry.. man wat's wrong with me. i can never keep up with these xanga things..unlike SARAH~~ loll
well today daddy just yelled at Thao i think... then after that he's all calmed and nice again.. awww poor him.. i really wish that he's ok.. i mean the doctor suspects that he might have diabete.. if i can, i'm willing to be the one with the diabete and not HIM. i love my daddy and mommy and Thao so much.. it's really weird how when you're still in jr high you hate your parents so much.. that you do everything to go against them.. mad at them for not letting you do stuff. but then now i'm grew up. i THINK now. lol. When you grew up, you realized that there's no place like HOME. and that FAMILY is the most important thing.. ^^ daddy, i wub you.. Dun worry, you will be ok and i know god would never let anything bad happen to our family. why? because we're good people.
Talking about grow up, i'm now turning into a NERD. i swear grades are more important than my life. wait, i DON'T have a life anymore >< I remembered last year i'm like so careless about my grade. but this year. OMG.. every point, every single grade matters to me. And i'm hating myself for being so bad last year. Right now i have to pay for wat i did last year. That is my GPA can never reach to a 12.0... why oh why. *crying*.. I just bought like 4 packs of cookies today for extra credit in computer science. and a bunch of pencils&pens for Biology's xtra credit. *sighs* i hope i did good in that computer science test.... It wasn't that hard to me.. but whenever i think that way.. i always end up with a bad grade.. I knew somethign gonna happen to me >< i probably got a bad grade on that test.. oh well. all i can do now is praying.... please god, please let me have an A in computer science this six week. and straight A's this six week. I know i can't do that with honor english. but please, let me have like an 80. PLEASE GOD, I'LL DO ANYTHING *begging on my knee*
Well 2 days ago i'm all crazy about this one IRAN guy.. but now i'm all like...watever........ wow wat's wrong with me.. one day i would be totally over this guy but then the next day i would hate him. Will i ever stay liking someone? Oh wellz.. who knoes.. i never beleive in TRUE love anyway.. i'm not sure about my parents.. i know they do love each other.. But noooooo not for me. I mean, how can one person stay loving one another person forever? Seriously, if i can ever find a guy that i will stay loving him forever, i wouild never let him go. But nooooo texas sux. or should i say, Martin High School sux.. all the asian guyz in there are always try to be cool.. They tried to denied their azn culture.. But nooo look at you!~~~ no matter how hard you try to be white, at home when you look at the mirror your skin will still be yellow.
Let see lets talk about guyz shall we? Guyz are the most selfish creature ever. They are all evil. I hate to think of the day if i go out with some guy, love him with all my heart, then at the end he will turn to like someone else.. Come to think about it, there will always be some girl who will be prettier than you. Some girls doesn't like a guy just because he looks good. Girls are the best. Unlike guys, we are loyal. We are passionate. And when we love a person, we mean it.
Okay this one wedding party.. i end up sitting next to a couple.. and omgg they're so cute.. The girl is like EXTREMELY pretty.. but her boyfriend is uh....... not all that.. And you can tell that he is way older than her.. But you know wat~~ they are so happy together.. I mean.. they're so cute..I seriously wanna take a picture of them together. I guess that's what you call TRUE LOVE. And i know i can never find the other part of my heart.. why oh why..
Anyway, the most important thing in my life right now is my family and my grades.. I wub you daddy! mommy! ><
BTW, i took a quiz today.. it's " which 1tym member are you ? ".. and guess wat i got... i got BAEKYOUNG!!!!!!!! i love him!! ^^ *teddy and danny are fine too*
anyway, i miss Elle Choi.. and Mango... and Aaron... please, have a movie or some album out this year.. AARON HO LANG JAI!
ERRR i dun really like Gilian.. but omg i want her hair!! I would like to highlight my hair pink like that too but ehhhh my dad would be like NOOOOOOO! hahah
anyway..this picture of gillian..is sooo.......deep... it's like there's something in her eyes... whoaaa
anywayz... that's it for now... i wrote a lot today.. hehehhe ^^ | 
